The Lived Experience of Guilt and To Honoring Our Creative Expression!
Hello World! Kemi Writes here!
My creativity class and I did a 7 minute phenomenological short film and it is called, “The Lived Experience of Guilt”. The creative process behind this film is something I will remember for sure. We started off brainstorming ideas on a problem or something we had trouble with, and something we want to bring to the community. We then wrote personal narratives of the experience of guilt we have personally experienced in our lives, and then we analyzed our narratives and brought them together as a group to come up with 4 themes of which the essence of guilt presents itself as. Then, we started filming in small groups for each theme based on the script that we came up with as a group. The whole experience was healing for me and I can remember how heavy I felt when we had to write a personal narrative on the experience of guilt. I also felt like I could feel the guilt all over again when writing it and even when talking about it in our class. I had moments where I had to step out and take a minute to cry.
As we progressed in the creative process, I felt like my relationship with guilt was also progressing. Brainstorming themes and analyzing our narratives was really satisfying for me. I think I just felt like the collaboration part of this process also felt healing for me as well. Bringing our minds together and just having that safe space that we all created was nice to experience for me. I felt that way when we did the poetic cinematography part of the process as well. This whole experience really helped me see the power of phenomenology and film together. It makes me want to do this again as a participant but also a facilitator of it of some sort like helping others do this as well. I enjoyed filming the shots for the film, and creating poetic shots without showing much of our faces as well. When we discussed the experience of guilt and our theme brainstorming, and when we did the shots for the film, I truly felt lighter in my body. It felt like the tension on my back was gone.
I have learned to honor my creative expression and not compare my creative self/inner child to anyone else’s. I have also learned that I should continue to be less controlling when it comes to my creative expression because I noticed how controlling I was to myself and how it was limiting space for my inner child to share her voice. It is still a work in progress, but progress has truly been made! Overall, I feel more confident in myself as a creative because of this creativity class, and I believe that all humans are creative geniuses.
This is my last blog post my friends! I hope we all continue to remember our creative expression and honor our creativity. I sure will be doing so! It brings us closer and closer to our inner child!
Below, is a link to our phenomenological film on The Lived Experience of Guilt! I hope whoever watches it gains a new perspective on guilt and I hope it brings you healing!
XOXO, Kemi Writes👋💜👥📽
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